Those three words are what kept floating through my mind as I read through all of the comments and messages I received. Y’all poured so much love, grace, understanding and encouragement on me.
When will I learn that keeping things in the dark or pretending like everything is okay only makes everything seem so much worse?!
Almost immediately after I hit publish, I felt such a sense of relief.
I wish I had brought all of those thoughts out into the light ages ago!
Darkness leads to festering. Light brings healing.
Thank you for your understanding. Thank you for your gentleness.
My Plan For Eating:
Several months ago, I became frustrated with My Fitness Pal. I felt like I was being punished for eating fruits and vegetables. I’d have to run a mile just to eat a banana worth 105 calories. That just did not compute for me. I mean . . . fruits and vegetables are real food.
I was also struggling with either constantly being hungry or just having the munchies. I figured if I was going to snack a lot I might as well snack on fruits and veggies, so I decided to give Weight Watchers another go. I was also hoping the change might re-motivate and re-energize me. Weight Watchers had revamped their Points Plus program since the last time I was on it and now, almost all fruits and veggies are zero points.
The switch lasted about a month and a half.
The only thing I liked about Weight Watchers was the zero point fruit and veggies . . . everything else just made me appreciate My Fitness Pal.
My Fitness Pal versus Weight Watchers:
~ MFP has the label scanner included within the app itself. WW has a separate app for scanning.
~ MFP has a quick-add tool where you can copy and paste what you had for breakfast/snack/lunch/dinner yesterday onto today. WW does not offer this.
~ MFP has a multi-add tool where you can add as many items as you want to your food diary in one shot without having to switch back and forth between screens. WW does not offer this.
~ MFP has an exercise diary that records calories burned. WW has an activity diary that records activity points earned. Since I wear a heart rate monitor with a calorie count watch I know exactly how many calories I burn. In my opinion, I feel tracking calories burned is more accurate than tracking activity points.
~ MFP is free. WW is not.
My solution for my frustration with MFP was to increase my daily caloric intake. I changed my weight loss goal from Lose 2 lbs. per week to Lose 1 lb. per week. That gave me almost 300 extra calories a day. Now, I have a little more wiggle room to snack on bananas, apples, oranges, strawberries, blueberries, baby carrots, grape tomatoes, cucumbers, etc.
I’ve really struggled mentally with this change because I want the weight to come off. Yesterday! Yet, I need to get it through my thick skull that when I become too hungry because I’m trying to stay under a lower caloric intake, all I really end up doing is overeating because I feel like I’m starving. Does that make sense?
My Plan for Exercise:
The only big change for me over the next few months is I will be running less. The only races I have on my calendar are a possible half-marathon the end of October and a full marathon the end of December. My body needs a break from marathons.
Ok. Enough about all that! How about some pictures?
This was somewhere around mile 17 in the marathon this past Sunday. I love getting to mile 17. It means there’s only single digits left!
I was admiring my toenails in this picture and being thankful I still have them. ::snort::
Oh, wait. Did I ever tell y’all about my toenails after the marathon in Peoria? Oh. My. Word. Apparently, you can get blisters underneath your toenails. I know, right? Grooooooossss. They were oozing for days. Yes, oozing. Niiiiiice.
Now, they’re bruised. My man thinks they will eventually fall off. I’m still crossing my fingers hoping I get to keep them.
I’m shaking my head right now. Sometimes I can’t believe the things running makes me say.
Does anyone else get sucked in by the $5 movie bin at Wal-mart? No? Just me?