I’m experiencing such a range of emotions right now.
I feel amazement, shock, pride, and gratitude.
I feel stronger, healthier and dare I say it? . . . . younger.
I’ve proven a few things to myself this past year.
I have grit. I have determination. I’m not a quitter.
I’ve experienced pain, failure, and disappointment, but I’ve also experienced freedom, achievement and unabashed joy.
I’ve quoted often from John Bingham’s book,An Accidental Athlete over the past months. Today will be no different.
I think back to my first days and weeks of learning how to run and I think of this quote:
“It was in that moment that I had the flash of enlightenment. How many times had I gotten to the end of my limits and quit? How many times had I allowed myself to believe that just because I thought I couldn’t take another step, I couldn’t? How many times had I let my head tell my body what it could and couldn’t do? How many times had I let my emotions dictate what I was capable of? . . . . The gift of self-discovery is one of the greatest gifts that comes from living as an athlete. I don’t know any other way to truly come face-to-face with your own beliefs about yourself. . . . My brain said I couldn’t. My will said I had to. My brain said I didn’t have anything left. My will said there is always something left. You just have to know where to look.”
I’ve dug deep this past year. Deeper than I thought possible on certain occasions.
I’m the same person I was a year ago . . . then again, not really. There are days I feel like the tortoise who slowly and painstakingly makes its way forward. Other days I feel as though I’ve made the transition from caterpillar to butterfly.
On a purely practical level, running has given me the key to keeping my weight off. Now, I haven’t had dramatic weight loss over the past year. I think around 20-ish pounds. Roughly. I’m okay with that because the amazing thing to me is I haven’t gained any weight back.
This is the longest I’ve ever been able to maintain a certain weight or continue to lose weight in my adult life. I’ve always been really good at losing weight and keeping it off for a few months before it comes back. Not so this time around. The reason? Running.
This was me the morning of my very first 5K last October. Glamorous? Not so much. ::snort::
“It may be true that the glamour of the sport belongs to the runners at the front of the pack, but the glory belongs to any one of us, regardless of whether we’ve stood atop an Olympic podium. If we face the obstacles, overcome our fears, and push our limitations, we can emerge victorious.” ~ John Bingham, An Accidental Athlete
Let’s do it, y’all. Let’s continue to face down the obstacles in life, overcome our fears and push past our limitations.