it’s just me.
sharing.
opening up and exposing my heart a little bit. always a bit awkward and uncomfortable.
i’ve been in the middle of an ugly mental battle since monday.
i can’t even say with certainty what started it.
loser #1 ~ the voice of doubt
i always struggle a little with doubt. it’s not anything new. sometimes the voice is so quiet i’m not even sure it’s there. other times, like now, i feel like it’s screaming right in my ear rattling my eardrum.
it can become paralyzing. it can turn me into a quitter.
i hate it.
loser #2 ~ the giant of fear
i’m afraid.
i’m afraid all the hard work i’ve put into living a healthier life over the past year will vanish. i’m afraid i’m going to sabotage myself. i’m afraid i’m going to go back to my old ways.
and i’m afraid.
. . . . . . . .
honestly, i really want to punch both of those losers in the face.
go ahead and punch them. every day if you need to!
you are a champion. the lord has given you this drive, to live a healthier life.
lean on him and shout those losers down. and IF you ever have an “old way” day, press on, it doesn’t mean you’ve sabotaged anything. you inspire me, and i am grateful for you!
praying for you!
hannah singer´s last [type] ..something delightful about blogging {more on friendship}
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Just punch them! Sometimes simply voicing those fears is all it can take to start their demise (wow, that came out weirder than I had intended, but it’s true
Take heart, you are strong! You can battle those doubts and giants!
beth´s last [type] ..Wearing my heart around my neck
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Lady, I began a post on fear this morning and then deleted it out of…fear. Punch them both hard in the face for all of us.
You are living your lifestyle one day at a time. Press on, dear friend. You can do this. You will do this. Look how far you’ve come. Cling to the One who can do it through you.
Hugs.
Southern Gal´s last [type] ..Layers
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What??? Fear??? Doubt??? NO!!! Y.O.U. are MY inspiration. Get your boxing gloves on right now. xoxo
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Loser #3 – ice cream has invaded my house. : (
Let’s hold each other accountable and encourage each other. I KNOW you can do it. You have showed more determination and willpower than anyone I know over the last year…and I’m convinced that you can stay on this path for years to come!!!
the Blah Blah Blahger´s last [type] ..JUMPING BACK IN TO THE DATING POOL
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Thanks so much for being real. It takes courage to be so honest in front of an audience.
And I totally get it. I can fall prey to that “loser” trap too. Especially in winter. bleh. So let’s both turn on that Rocky soundtrack and punch those fears in the face!
the aunt with gum´s last [type] ..what in the world {wordless wednesday}
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Those voices are the worst … but God wants the best … He wants to see you succeed! Wishing you thoughts of truth!
amanda d´s last [type] ..living simply
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Punch away!
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shout right back at that voice….and stare that giant down. you have accomplished so much…i totally get worrying about blowing it and having it all go away. take it day by day ruthanne…every morning we wake up and receive 24 hours to live the best {and healthiest} life we can…then we’re trusted to do just that…day by day.
Tamara´s last [type] ..cooking with lidia week #4…potatoes with peperoncino
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Fear & doubt won’t go away will they? They will always try to sneak back in. But I think taking things one step at a time help to cast them out.
I drew a sign for myself.
It says:
Just make it through:
-the next minute.
-the next hour.
-the next day.
Whatever I need to just make it through so that I can overcome that doubt and fear of failure.
Hugs. Big fat hugs.
Lindsay´s last [type] ..whew. glad I got that all out.
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You go girl! Punch away!
Be strong and look where your going and only look behind to see how far you have come
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just remember that YOU ARE A RUNNER! do you remember when you first started running, and running a full five minutes felt like you were a champ? and now look, training for a half marathon. if you can run, you can do anything. and running is addictive, once you start, you can’t ever imagine not being “a runner”! it’s awesome just to tell people…”yeah, I run…training for a half marathon right now”.
so when those voices creep…think of all you’ve accomplished lately. you are an inspiration! have a great weekend!
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Be strong, you’re doing great. There will be times that don’t go so great, but just keep moving forward. You rock and you’ve got me up off my butt (which the Mrs. appreciates you for in various different ways. Ha!) and you’re an inspiration. So in return, I’ve got your back. You need a little encouragement? You can always get some here. Not sure where I’ll be at the end of March, but I will commit to running the longest run of my life when you do your 1/2 marathon. How’s that? You’re awesome!
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Awesome! congrats on your long run! I love my Saucony shoes. I switched from Ascics too. Happy running, you got this!;)
Shon´s last [type] ..I Love…
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