it’s just me.
sharing.
opening up and exposing my heart a little bit. always a bit awkward and uncomfortable.
i’ve been in the middle of an ugly mental battle since monday.
i can’t even say with certainty what started it.
loser #1 ~ the voice of doubt
i always struggle a little with doubt. it’s not anything new. sometimes the voice is so quiet i’m not even sure it’s there. other times, like now, i feel like it’s screaming right in my ear rattling my eardrum.
it can become paralyzing. it can turn me into a quitter.
i hate it.
loser #2 ~ the giant of fear
i’m afraid.
i’m afraid all the hard work i’ve put into living a healthier life over the past year will vanish. i’m afraid i’m going to sabotage myself. i’m afraid i’m going to go back to my old ways.
and i’m afraid.
. . . . . . . .
honestly, i really want to punch both of those losers in the face.
